This Urge Cant Stay Unrecgonized by Leah

The urge so powerful
i lose all feeling in my body
when i do this, i get such a rush
it is like i am inhuman
just sitting knowing what i am doing
but still i take the knife to my wrist
i can not admit it to anyone
at least i know i have a problem
my life has been tough
and i chose to wrong path
now I'm paying for it
with the scars,the cuts
some days i just wish i never started
but others i get this urge
telling me to cut
the little voice in my head
in the sweetest voice tells me to
most of the time ugly thoughts
fill my head all about suicide
some days i want to go along
but every time i try i just get saved
well this time no one can save me
because
I'm addicted to the game of no return