So Close by *~J@D3~*

I was so close,
To throwing everything away,
So close to going over the edge,
I was just going to leave,
Leave this place,
Go somewhere else,
That I knew would be a better place,
She turned my world upside down,
I was at a low,
I had never felt before,
I had my days,
Were I wasn’t as upset,
And some good things happened,
Then other days,
I struggled to breathe,
Through all the tears,
Struggled to see,
Why this was happening to me,
I never did anything wrong,
I didn’t deserve this,
I didn’t deserve any of it,
I had nearly done it so many times,
I had had enough,
I was going to do it,
I was going to let everything go,
I had that knife,
In my hand,
Pointing to my chest,
I was ready to pierce it through,
I was,
But then,
I though of how much my family loved me,
And how much it would hurt them,
I thought of my friends,
I thought of all of this,
Dropped the knife and let it all go,
I was so ready to go that night,
but decided to stay and fight