Razor Love (please Please Read) by *bleeding4eternity*
I'm drying my eyes
I'm mending my heart
I'm ready for
a brand new start
healing my wounds
revealing my smile
praying life will stay
good for a little while
clearing the clouds
showing the sun
a new life
has just begun
erasing the memories
forgetting everything
can't wait to see
what the future will bring
my mind is finally
set out straight
its tomorrow!
I can hardly wait
to show the world
the new me!
oh my goodness
what they expect to see..
i open the doors
and reveal myself
a smile, no tears
what a wealth
they stare at me
i can't read what they think
i hope they like
the new me
then they all
begin to laugh
they point and stare
i can't do the math
what's so funny
I'm just trying to fit in
have i lost this game
or can i still win
then one person
blurts on out
in the middle of everyone
he hatefully shouts
your clothes are different
but you're still the same
you may be smiling
but you'll never change
they all start laughing
and nodding their heads
then one shouts out
why aren't you dead?
i run through the hall
to the nearest bathroom
burst open the doors
and in i zoom
i look in the mirror
and see my face
mascara running
what a disgrace
my heart is breaking
my eyes are soaking
my "brand new start"
is officially broken
i reopen my wounds
put my frown back on
that didn't really
last to long
the clouds come back
the sun disappears
my new began life
has been flooded with tears
the memories come back
i haven't forgotten a thing
so this is what my future
was meant to bring
my mind is crooked
once again
my "new found life"
has found an end
so much for trying
to change the old me
no matter what
thats all they'll see
i can't change
who was i kidding
so why in the hell
am i still living
they want me dead
so here i go
soon my blood
will be able to show
i take the razor
from my purse
i always keep in
for easy disperse
i take it and hold it
with one hand
slit my wrist
i can barely stand
the blood is pouring
heavily out
i fall to the floor
with a light shout
i feel weak
its becoming a flood
pouring slowly
my crimson blood
my eyes slowly
begin to close
soon ill be dead
still no one knows
i hear the girls whisper
outside the door
they say something like
she needs to live no more
they walk into the room
probably planing to tease
then laying there drowning in blood
is dying old me
they see me they shutter
one runs screaming
never did they imagine
to find me bleeding
they had wished it
but do they now
I'm not so sure
clueless somehow
i feel a circle
build around me
boys and girls
some even crying
some yell
o it's all my fault
some walk in
and come to a halt
they never knew
how deep words cut
feeling weaker
my eyes completely shut
feeling pain
loosing more blood fast
look at how long
this body did last
a teacher runs in
screams and feels for a pulse
picks me up
though there is no hope
everyone follows her
screaming whats going on
my life with you guys
wasn't to fun
in her arms
i take my last breath
and with it say
"your wish is my death"
and barely open my eyes
once more
to stare at them
some look at me. then down at the floor
at this point
i finally die
this had to happen
just a matter of time
i could never
ever change
the purpose of life
was o so strange
living to be teased
and told to die
bleeding cutting
trying not to cry
and finally
i cut deep enough
now I'm gone
sweet razor love
meet the old me
the new me barely existed
i swear i was changed
all of you missed it
so to all of you
who wished me dead
lay me slowly
on my coffin bed
so here i am
your wish has been fulfilled
i took all i could take
now all my blood has spilled...
so please
never wish someone dead
because you can't take back
the words you've said
and once you say it
it just may come true
oh! how words affect
what others do
so hold your tongue
and think before you make a mistake
because soon enough
it will be to late
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