Untitled~(to My Bff *ross*) by Kenzie
Now that I think about it, I don’t know how I even lived,
Before I met you I felt like the world was a big scary monster, and out to get me,
So I put on a mask to scare the scary world away.
Everyone seemed to like the mask instead of me,
So I kept on my mask, just to hide the truth: that I was just simple boring me.
The longer I kept on my mask the more doubt and insecurity built up inside,
The more doubt and insecurity I had, the more pressure I felt;
I felt pressure in my school, and pressure in my house, I even felt the pressure in my dreams.
I felt like I had a burden, like the weight of the world,
But even after I felt the pressure, I still kept on my mask.
I felt so much pressure and so much pain, I got really depressed,
I had gotten so depressed that I just stopped caring; I stopped caring about my schoolwork, my family and I even stopped caring about my friends.
I had felt so much internal pain that I started conflicting external pain upon myself.
What I had just realized was that a simple mask was destroying my life, but yet still the mask remained.
Then one day I met you…..
As I got to know, I felt as if we had been friends for our whole lives.
After the short amount of time we knew each other, you were the only one, who understood everything I was going through,
You were the only one who knew that I constantly wore a mask.
You found out everything I was going through and you put a stop to it right away,
You had removed my mask and threw it away; you were my savior every single day.
You had become my best friend…..
Some stuff started happening in my life once again, and this time I just couldn’t handle it,
I called you crying one night and u said that everything was going to be ok,
You had talked me out of suicide; you had saved my life once again.
You are the best friend I had ever had so please take a moment to think;
How long do you think I’ll make it?? How long until I die??
Babe, you: took off my mask and taught me to be myself, you saved me from myself, and most important you taught me to be as good of a friend as you….
Ross, babe, I love you; please do not leave me……
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