I'm Not Going To Cry Tonight by Razorblade

I'm not going to cry tonight
Everything will be all right
I won't look at your pictures on my wall
And I won't break down and fall

I won't message you, I'll ignore you
I just want to be okay, like you want me to
I'm sorry that this is what I'm left to do
But I can't let anything remind of you two

This breaks my heart
Because I'm pushing us farther apart
I don't think we were meant to be
Especially since you live in Tennessee

You are so far away
I just want to move everyday
When I'm without you I just let go
When I'm without you nothing is what I know

You have become apart of my life
We've even joked of you being my wife
Everything that I do
Reminds of you

The plaid pants I wear, remind me of FeFe
The poem on the wall from her to me
The music I listen to, reminds me of BB
The pictures on the wall, remind me that we were meant to be

When will I see you again?
When will I see your smile, which wipes away my pain?
When will I hold you in my arms?
When will we be able to vanish each other's harm?

Tonight I will not cry
I won't allow my heart die
I will not allow myself to tear
And I won't turn you into one of my fears

© Taylor Brown, 2005-09-07

[[ Dedicated to: BB and FeFe Jonavitch ]